OK, I know no-one read my last post, which in fairness turned into a monster. Don't blog bit by bit and lose track of just how much crap you have written! This one is serious though, I could do with some help and advice...
I don't know what to do. Poker is just so incredibly, ridiculously, impossibly bad for me. I lost another £200 today, with EV saying I should have won 50p. So another £200 the Poker Gods/Jesus/Buddha/Moses/Krishna/Joseph Smith/Xenu sees fit to deny me. I had thought of praying to a different God prior to starting my next few sessions, but this has a few flaws:
1) Blasphemy. The one God who I may not have got round to yet might be pissed off at me praying elsewhere and infect me with further run bad.
2) My praying won't be heartfelt, I'm an athiest.
3) My roll might not last long enough to get round to Scientology.
I'm going to post a few HHs from today that basically epitomise my last 8 weeks of poker completely taking the piss:
Standard, he's a total spewtard monkey and I'm crushing his range here. I lose races something chronic. I'm actually going to see if HEM can produce results for when I get it in preflop with 40-60% equity and work something out. It'll make me depressed I'm sure.
These spots knock the confidence a bit, because a lot of the time lately I've been running into the tops of ranges, and getting crushed. But sometimes, just sometimes I get it in awesome versus the larger portion of villains ranges... and still lose.
Finally, when 82% preflop, and 90% on the turn just isn't enough.
My roll is in absolute tatters, and the real world of work may well be round the corner for Brenos. And in the current climate I'm not going to be able to walk into something decent I don't think. Time to hold the hands up and ask for help. It's been approx 2 months, over £5k in moneys and just under 100k hands of utter shit. My frame of mind is really starting to suffer. Anyone been through anything like this before? Can anyone offer any advice?